everyone's so busy publicising my brother's overseas trip.
grandma talking to her bunch of friends how capable my brother is and how her friends think is a hereditary thing which obviously isnt.
mum saying how fantastic my phone bill is and how i should spare a thought for them because they have to support my brilliant brothers who uses their intelligent brains thus they get invited to study overseas. how i should save up for their studies. daddy just introduced me to go tuitioning so i can pay for my own phone bill and stuff so they can concentrate on supporting my two brothers. and he din realise i hate tuitioning. If not i would have done it gazillion years ago. and my brother busy filling up his application forms and taking his american passport size photo without considering how i will live without him and he din talk to me anything about his trip. and my eldest brother is just so indifferent about everything. isnt it vacation for him noww. wad's he doinggg?? dun he miss me ):
thanks grandma for pining her hopes on me to be like my brother in a few years time. i hope i dun give her a heart attack. wad's wrong with them. wad's wrong with me. and why am i not like them. what am i doing in AJC. cant they tell my limits. i cant even meet their leeeeasst expectation which is to at leaaaassst get in NJ. not to say HC. HAHA. mum even asked if i have the chance to go overseas to study would i go. but i never thought i was capable to do that. not to even think about living there.

and this male PE teacher ( sorry cant remember his name) actually came up to me today and say my incline pull up cannot make it. " at this rate you're gonna fail" and i was actually doing the toughest one of the incline pull ups which my chin cant even reach even if i pull up all the way. im gonna flunk my NAPFA. and during standing board jump, he asked me to look at how this random girl jumps. thats like telling me i cant jump or something. but at least i got either a B or A for these of my stations previously. urgh. NAPFA NAPFA NAPFA. has never been much of a problem to me just like how my set of teeth is. yet this year i think im gonna flunk it. and my 2.4km has always been the only station i never fret over with until this year me and naz tried out during this PE lesson which i cant remember when and we scored a B. and mum is behind me ratting on about how our house will be so cold and quiet without my two brothers around now. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

and all my subjects are screwed. i cant describe the intensity of it any further. im gonna fail my math test this thursday. WHEE.

and i need to rush my lit assignment by tonight.

and im FAT.

and my life is so messssssssy like my hair.