words to say.

no idea why that injection area still hurts. ahhh..i still feel so hurt about it!! i din wanna have an injection!!!!! oh wellll. BAHHH. it's over anywayy. BUT IT HURTS. hmm.

ok i need to go watch LOST so have to make it quick. after tv i still have to copy ss and amaths notes to make up for yesterday. &%*#$. hello where's my holiday. are you theree?

tons and thousands of words i wanna say today
but yet i just dun feel like talking
probably cos of my throat.
it always happens after i have a fever.

yet by not speaking
streams of emotions kept flowing through my mind
dun ask me why
cos i have no idea too

loneliness.
sadness.
remorsefulness.
unhappiness.

tearful.
sorrowful.
wadevaful.

maybe when one doesnt speak one thinks much more cos he/she uses more of his/her brain since his/her mouth doesnt work. yea i guess so.

but thinking too much hurts me too.

like
how terrible it is to not laugh out loud.
how terrible it is to not eat your favourite food.
how terrible it is to cough till you just wanna die that moment.
how terrible it is to not bounce around.
how terrible it is to be in your own world.
how terrible it is when no one understands your pain.
how terrible it is to break someone's heart.
it's so terrible cos it's not me.

the one who breaks people's hearts doesnt deserve to be loved right.








ah. i hate being sick. cos i have no idea how to take care of myself. if only i have a bodyguard >.<