a love to kill

( A love to kill) last episode..

The elder brother was the father, the mother.
He was the boy's whole life.
One day, hyung( the elder brother), without leaving a word, left the youth(bokgu).
Because the boy didn't listen to his hyung.
One day,10 years later.
The hyung returned to the youth's side.
But the hyung...
Because of a girl.
He jumped and left the face of this earth,
in front of the youth.

The boy had a girl by his side.
It was the very same girl who had caused his brother to jump.

Bokgu:
* Even though i see love, it passes by and i can't see it.. *
Even though i know it's love, i call it something else..

He returned all the suffering his hyung had undergone to her.
* Even though i hear love.. It passes by and i can't hear it.. *
He wanted her to die, he detested and hated that girl.

Bokgu:
In order to conceal my tears, I laugh out loud..
My love, my love, is it really that bad?
When everyone else loves, they're happy, but why do i cry?
Why does it only hurt for me?
I would throw everything away if only i had permission for this love..
I might get blinded by your bright light..
My broken heart is worsened by this painful love..
I live with this love that hurts like death--

Eun Seok( the femle lead):
Oh...I have something I wish to tell you.
The moment Kang Bokgu's name was
engraved onto Cha Eun Seok's heart..
Although it was for revenge...
Although it seemed at that point in time the
100% adoration; that it was all calculated...
But I won't complain, won't hate..
Just curious if you have ever wavered.
The time when you were beaten up by the gangsters.
In order to protect me, you nearly lost your life.
If it was a girl you really abhorred,
You didn't have to bother.
Since you came for revenge,
should have concentrated on vengeance.
Because of me, you nearly died.
What were you thinking of then?
When did it begin?
When did you begin liking me?
When did it begin?
Good to keep hating...
If you had kept on hating,
it would have been good.
Then you wouldn't have to suffer.

The boy also remembered the situation then.
The boy only wished for the
girl not to get hurt at all.
He earnestly hoped that the
girl would be safe and sound.
Long before the girl liked the boy.
For the boy, the girl was love.

Bokgu:
From the first time I saw you.
From the first moment I saw you.
I came to fetch you.
I am the one who will be responsible
for your safety: Kang Bokgu.
I love you.

The boy had already realised his mistake from the start.
This sort of girl; should never have pretended to love her.

Bokgu:
Just for one day, let's go crazy on this very day.
Don't hope for anything more..
Don't wash our face, and don't brush our teeth.
And don't sleep.
Don't think of anything.
Don't think of anything else at all
( FYI: both bokgu and the girl were carrying this guilt of betraying the elder brother, the girl was the elder bro's girlfriend)
Don't feel sorry, don't feel guilty..Don't cry.
Just go crazy on this day.
After this crazy day..
You will go your way, I will go my way.
Don't have any feelings of self-pity or regret.
And not to have any more feelings of infatuation.
And not to have any memories.
Once we return, live life fully.
( FYI: they felt very guilty of being together cos of the elder brother..so..)

The boy and girl met again.
In order not to love each other again...They met again.

The person you admire most?
My father.
Most hated food?
None.
Then, the place you want to visit the most?
A deep mountain forest.
The wide sea bed.
A place where nobody can find me.

The boy and girl kept on questioning and giving replies.
After all, they would forget it all tomorrow...
And cannot keep it in their memory...

After you return, what do you plan to do?
Live well.
Live well?
Yes, live well.
How do you intend to live well?
Start my training all over again and prepare to become a champion..
Go back to the mechanic shop, work well and be a cool mechanic..
And...Me too..
Gather myself together and start filming.
Earn lots of money.
Buy a big house.
And a luxury car.
Fall in love, marry, have children.
Live well like that.

Time cruelly slipped away from the boy and girl.
Time, that they will never have again.
That was how they spent their remaining time together.

the girl asked bokgu some questions and he answered.. :
What were your happiest moments?
The time when hyung returned.The hyung who abandoned me, and returned 10 years later.
And up till now, the most fortunate moment?
When hyung regained consciousness.
Until now, the time your heart ached the most?
Knowing the reason why my hyung left me for 10 years.In order to shoulder my blame, he went to the correctional institute.So he couldn't stay by my side.Realised all this after seeing my hyung again.
Until now, the most painful moment?
When hyung abandoned me once again.To a place where I cannot find him. When he abandoned me and left. ( as in. he died)
For Kang Bokgu, what does Kang Mingu represent?
Without Kang Mingu, will Kang Bokgu still exist?
That's why it can't be me right?
Any other girl would be okay, only it can't be Cha Eun Seok?
Really pitiful, Cha Eun Seok.
How unlucky, Kang Bokgu.

Bokgu was thinking:
No, you don't belong to me..
No, we don't belong together..
Not the first time I saw you..
Not even when you entered my heart..
Run away so my eyes can't find you..
So my feelings don't grow..
So my heart doesn't know..
Oh~ you sprung out of hate..
No, we can't.. Stop, we can't go any further..

The boy and girl went their separate ways..
What they have, is time that can't be forgotten and will never end..

It's uncertain if the girl really returned to her place...
If she kept the promise of forgetting everything and to be happy...
We have no way of knowing..

Although it was bitterly cold and windy, the boy left once more..
Nobody could make him stay..
Deep in winter, with spring still distant..
Winter passed and spring came, then winter returned.
The boy worked hard in life.
In order to keep the promise he made with the girl, he did his best to live life to the fullest.
The girl also tried her best to live her life well, in order to keep the promise she made with the boy.
And do her best to live life well.
The boy told me this.
With all his might, the boy is gasping for air as he lives on.

this guy who liked the girl came and talk to bokgu:
Thought you left together.
Eun Seok has disappeared.
It's been two days. Hand phone is off.
Searched in all the possible places, she's nowhere to be found.
Actually she was doing well.
Thought she has endured and gotten over it.
Thought everything would get better.
Last year, Eun Seok was undergoing psychiatric counselling.
In the end, she still couldn't endure it and went to look for Kang Bokgu.

Bokgu went to the place that they promised to leave each other to look for her.
Wake up, Eun Seok! Eun Seok!
Wake up, Eun Seok!
Sorry, sorry, Eun Seok.
You can't die.

On this night, the boy gave all his body heat to the girl.
Calling, and kept calling the girl.

Bokgu:
Until now, the second hardest thing...
Was leaving a scar upon Eun Seok's heart..
And making Eun Seok shed all those tears.
Until now, the second happiest time...
Was when Eun Seok forgave me.
Until now, the second most fortunate time...
Was when Eun Seok said she still loved a person like me.
Thank you.

The boy had the girl by his side once again..
In that warm and clear morning..

FYI: both of them froze to death in the wintery mountain.

i felt that this episode was so beautifully portrayed. with all the flashbacks and how the narrator narrates the male and femle lead using 'the boy' and 'the girl' and just how every line the lead said was so meaningful or saddening i should say. just by reading this may make you confused.. but if you're interested, go watch the last episode of it via youtube. sob sob. RAINNNN!